you will always gonna be my love

2009-06-30T22:51:00.002+08:00

today is father's birthday.
went dining with family.
bought an icecream cake for father.
quite nice to eat.
he keep saying that this is his first time cutting cake on birthday.
then he very happy lor keep smiling, haha.

in the past i always neglect my family.
all the while they are waiting.
i wont let them wait anymore.

that day went out with cyril,
he bring along a pretty girl.
dont understand why they so many girls one,
i one also dont have.
went buy clothes,
she really sweet when she choose clothes for cyril.
we bought same hoody as she suggested, wear together go out. haha.
after that went eat den dagging ring ring.
thats all for the day.

2009-06-24T09:43:00.003+08:00

So fast another few days passed.
i getting more stressed up,
o lvls more and more nearer,
im only starting to learn from scratch.
somemore just start driving theory.
these few days like same, study, shopping, meet friends.
that day met up with kiro yushimi.
my friend ask her out when we still have lessons afterwards -.-
she went to our class and ah lian scolded her bitch for nothing.
i think they were just jealous of her and they are very low-class compared to her.
the two guys said they have something on and just left her wif me!
omg, i dont even know her lor.
luckily, saw my rtc friend, went for a sip.
i so long never mix with girl, alone with a girl, omg.

yesterday went kbox with ziyang,
alot new songs never hear before.
two person very boring.
nowadays i only meet up with ziyang and kenneth.
then we saw freddy with his girlfriend,
happy holding hands, laughing all the way from afar -.-
nvm let them go tian mi mi.

wondering when would i be like them, again...

2009-06-18T22:26:00.003+08:00

Nothing much happens in recent.
Except for knowing a japanese girl through friend.
Omg she is a real beauty.
Today i saw another good friend from rtc.
We used to say we will go out together, study together when we're out.
But now he is going in again, am really sad about this.
He told me most of the rest already cut dagging, or went in.
By right inside we planned rtc chalet to see hows everyone doing.
But now think no more.
went home changed and went jogging as usual.
life seems so lifeless.

Thinking of your laughter,
hoping that time would tick faster.
every minute, second would cease.
I'm afraid that as time goes by,
you will drift away further.
i waited patiently,
leaving all my burdens behind.
farewell has come,
i awaken from my dreams,
and ask, " where are you".

2009-06-14T20:06:00.002+08:00

Quite busy for the past week,
until now then have time to write something.
i've got good news.
My friend was released,
we went for lunch at a classy place, haha really weird.
talked about our life, our future and so.
I gave him alot of advise and asked him to lead a simple life like me.
Thats the life thats most fufilling after all.
Right now my main aim is to save up and start a business.
although i dont really know how, but im willing to learn.
o'level pass is also important to me to move on to another level.
after my dagging, i definetly will go overseas to invest in products,
either direct selling or resale.
thats my first move i guess.
But... right now, shouldn't think that far.
hais, go study maths first, pass O'level then think bah.
byebye.

2009-06-07T18:11:00.003+08:00

Today early in the morning short circult,
i was woken up due to oxygen deficency.
so early, cannot get back to sleep.
called the driving centre, the lady had attitude problems.
So nvm see how it goes, still got many other private centres.
I went jogging and exercised heavily.
But i growing fat instead of more muscular.
Guess im eating more than what i burn.
After that went shopping wif family.
jus bought few stuffs and eat alot again, omg.
after that good boy reach home before 8, haha.

2009-06-07T00:24:00.003+08:00

Time passes so fast,

slowly adapting to the changes.

although i dont like the too much changes,

but life's like that.

i just recall on these few days back, quite nice anyway.

Cant forget the first day, its unbelievable!

the feeling is undescripable.

I was like smiling whole day long.

i really ate non stop, i ate like more than 3person's portion.

i sat down and chatted wif my family for a long time.

its really nice to be home, i never realised tat in the past.

That night when i lie on my bed,

it was amazingly soft.

i learned alot, i understand that i never cherish things.

first few days, met up wif many friends.

old pals, buddies, school mates.

Happy for some of them who changed their lives for the better,

some driving, poly, etc.

Really happy for them although im envious of them.

Sad things, always happens.

i already faced alot,

so guessed it never hurt that much.

Things always turns out differently from what i predicted.

i cant expect much anyway.

But sometimes looking back at my past things, haha really funny.

Like my pictures before, things i wrote on my blog.

i actually wanted delete away but i read it all again,

very naive and little boy kind of thinking, haha.

so i keep it lor, sometimes its nice to think back.

Hmm now currently studying and working.

Really need consider for my future already.

But im trying hard enough,

after school straight go do survey for LTA,

reach home eat, exercise, after everything already midnight, really busy.

tomorow start take driving theory, haha im like robot already.

life's much healtier in this way,

good news is i've already quit smoking as well.

i really dont know how i did it, because i made a promise i guess.

thats all for today.

2007-04-17T12:22:00.001+08:00

Weijie, please update soon!
dont be lazy, be a good boy.
see, you dont even bother t reply people's tags.
smack your butt :D
anthea's sick, but i still come t update for you.

and anthea loves you alot okay!
each day passes by so fast, i dont want you t leave me }:
im rly afraid tht day will come.
i'll treasure my everyday with you,
and have confidence in me,i'll wait for you.
you said you'll gimme a good life whn you're out,
and i want t wait till tht day, you must keep your promise.
and i'll keep my promise too :D
gougou shou! hookies.

and! all th photos tht we've taken,
all deleted by mr.how! }: you, you!
but, i still managed t take one pic of you whn you didnt noticed it.
muahaha, go see my blog! nanny nanny poopoo.
ending here, much loves t you!
oh, today's our 397th days:D

2007-04-08T17:30:00.000+08:00

MR.HOW LAZYBUM!

Meiyou update}:

anthea come update for you

i ♥ you lah:D byebye.

whose dog is this?

is mine lah! di bei hiao{:

mr.how gimme one.

2007-03-26T10:24:00.001+08:00

saturday, march 24 an unlucky day for me.
walked out of house,
locked de door and found my hp left behind,
i even forgotten the keys.
luckily saw my brother nearby house and he helped me get it.
alone went woodlands meet pz they at there.
reached there light a cig,
as usual after smoking i will jus drop my cig butt on ground.
got fined 200dollars.
when i walk to meet pz they at control station,
they told me anthea was here,
she jus left jus before i arrived.
hais, i belived we walked pass each other,
only didnt see each other.
feeling so down,
at queensway quarreled wif freddy.
hais dont wan say anymore le.
first time i quarrel wif friend lidat.
me and him no longer friends.
alone for rest of the day,
dont feel like going home,
went walk walk,
stomach was hungry didnt have lunch.
first time eating out alone.
went to playground lying watching stars.
whole sky no stars until one appeared.
i made a wish, as soon as my wish was made,
it disappear.
i believe de star went far away to fulfil my wish.

yesterday parents brought me out for breakfast,
eat alot at balestial.
went home dont feel like going anywhr.
jianzhen called ask me pei him,
ok lor, slacked and chatted.
at night pz called me,
i ton at his house.
later hmm, maybe going BMC wif kh.
evening i going for my muaythai.
tats all for today

2007-03-22T14:14:00.000+08:00

these few days, hais.
lol, everyday doing nothing.
yesterday went BMC.
3200dollars for private o's
papa say expensive.
not taking it le ba.
maybe get some tution will do.
how i will get an o lvl cert.
mum tell me go sign up army le,
or go take ITE.
useless de, i still haven play enough.
lol, yesterday something happened.
but i didnt get involved, hahas.
i wan go back learn muaythai,
mum disapprove.
but i dont care her, she cant stop me, hahas
hmm tomoro i wan find anthea.
i wan write a letter for her,
long since i wrote to her.
jus now, spend de morning at kh house sleeping.
lol, vri BORED!!
signing off. bye2

2007-03-18T02:11:00.000+08:00

its back from chalet,
im really tired.
didnt get enough sleep, reached home at 9,
bathed and rush down to find kel they all.
they bet the first match and left me out, argghh.
tomoro meeting her?
i donoe, vri paisae leh.
aiyoh i dont know leh,
but i really feel like meeting her.
hmm, stupid kahao.
help me make my blog song until donoe how.
lol, *ahbish him.
she didnt msg me today,
or my phone spoil.
donoe, i nvr recieve any msg today, weird.
k ba shall end here,
i wan change my blogskin!
goodnites tuh her :)

2007-03-15T19:44:00.000+08:00

yawns, tired tired.
yesterday nite watch soccer, woah.
arsernal won, i won.
but chelsea i lose money,
tat day, went kbox.
happy day until she msged me at 12pm.
happy 6th month breakup.
its 6th month since she left me,
she is the girl who i truely once love.

yesterday went revo city,
had fun, looked at the sea.
thinking of my future,
went i grow up i wan to go overseas.
build a business empire,
LOL, tats my goals.
sat down and had a long chat wif sherna,
shared a long conversation.
she knows me better,
cox we were once good friends.
didnt even realised we chatted till sky was dark, lol.
anthea didnt msg me today, hmm.
de fucking ziyang basturd donoe msg wad,
he dont wan tell me wad he msged wif anthea,
wad he and her de secret, i dont need know.
fuck him, *ahbish*

2007-03-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

oooh, nice weekend.
went party world on friday nite.
kh fred pz kel yy hy jp sherna cs jovena joyce hx me.
hx sang the first song and ran away,
guessed she feeling emotional.
sing finish abt 12plus lidat,
went 900+ eat.
some of them drink,
i only eat nvr drink, yeah
went home have a nap.
gamble the whole sat,
lose lose lose, played until morning.
lose 125dollar, donoe how to find money.
didnt even have money for breakfast.
luckily winner kahao treat breakfast.
went home sleep, met up wif them 4plus.
today at least better luck,
win back abit but still losing 60dollar.
whew at least better.
tomoro schooling le,
ending of chinese new year.
looking forward to march holiday,
got chalet, yeah.
goodnight readers

2007-02-08T17:04:00.000+08:00

wad a long day,
study study study,
i sleep sleep sleep,
donoe y vri sleepy these few days.
my friend recieve a call need go back station on sun.
boring, donoe i need go ma.
sat going dinner, all namdai ppl must go.
tomoro meeting huixin i think,
if not sunday den can see her.
i think gotta shop for more clothes,
i only bought 2 shirt,
wear first day second day of new year jiu nothing wear le.
LOL, i see my hair i jiu sian liao.
going meet friends, gtg tc.

2007-02-06T17:05:00.000+08:00

post abt douglas bday, yeah.
morning my parents bring our family and my gf go eat.
eat restaurant, nice nice.
long time nvr family gathering le,
feel bad, dad and mum work give me money,
but i everytime nvr pei them.
mum told me b4, dad is old le,
spend more time wif him,
he work so hard, only wan us good life.
he jus wan us kids to spend more time wif him tats all.
douglas all now have beautiful hair.
admire man,
mark,willie,hanwei,douglas,russel,junlong,shawn, gap chung,
only gapchung hair not nice,
russel de vri thick.
i love junlong and shawn de colour especially.
hanwei now more handsome le leh, aiseh..
went eat at clementi.
eat those peng fish sotong crab all these,
guess hw much.
spent 169 eating. LOL
they order until table full.
hmm now at peizhong house,
wif cs pz hx.
dooe they wan go arena anot,
later hx need go meet mum.
feeling sleepy guess lack of sleep.
keep dozing off in class.
yawns, my coursework gotta rush.
always forget to do, den ms tan not happy.
many things have changed.
falling deeper into love wif huixin,
going chinese new year le,
hair still short.
stupid ms lau cut until lidat.
i wait until going new year den i go cut.
at least longer abit,
nothing much, shall post nxt time.
now we found our own happiness,
im glad we can forget each other.
i didnt regret making you hate me.

2007-01-24T15:19:00.000+08:00

another tiring day at sch.
teacher talked abt education life.
now den i realised its competitive.
mummy say if i go poly she give me a thousand dollars.
brother got a thousand when he entered JC.
i dont even know wad study anot after my o lvl.
mum say study or nvr study also nvm,
at least get o lvl cert can le.
thinking of my life after i married.
jiawen my sitmate, i told her the life i wan.
she laugh, but tats really wad i wanted.
going high class restaurant to dine,
drinking at pubs,
my wife must wear branded,
my kids must get the best of everything.
i must do it, i wan my love ones to lead a good life.
so, no more thinking of joining wad gang.
i dont wan go back to the life.
anthea once changed my life,
i shall not disappoint myself.
morning, my wife will prepare breakfast for me,
help me wear my tie, prepare dinner and i will rush home for dinner.
hais, y i say until future,
ok shall end here.

2007-01-16T02:45:00.000+08:00

cant get to sleep.
im feeling so stressed.
jus now actually celebrating friend bday.
in the end broke out into quarrel.
saw little girl cry.
really vri pity lor.
i also feel like crying.
i really feel like crying now,
i cant sleep. im stressed out.
i finished 3 compos for friends.
im tired, but i cant sleep.
i feel weird, im going bed.
erm, think write until here ba.
happy birthday to anthea. *bless*

2007-01-07T19:09:00.000+08:00

jus wake up, tired.
sleep 12 hours, jus now actually woke up at 3pm de.
but was sad and went back to sleep.
dont feel like seeing her.
nvm, anyway tomoro going sch.
sian, another week ahead.
left few hours to go out later.
gotta go, need go home early.
donoe betty chow can find a sch for me anot,
hope can ba. not in mood to do anything, byebye

2006-12-31T16:53:00.000+08:00

hi everyone.
now at kelvin house wif yanzheng choonseng.
going esplanate for countdown. hhees
but wad time isit now, most of them still on bed.
waited and waited. sians.
huixin angelin go meet kahao.
freddy peizhong still sleeping.
hope nothing will happen today,
no fights. yeah.
sch reopening le, all gonna have black hair.
hees. first day of sch donoe will go hillgroove ma. hais.
will i still see you in future?
will i change my group of friends?
will we still keep in contact?

2006-12-26T02:11:00.000+08:00

blog abt christmas eve and chrismas day.
went kahao house, bought presents wif yanzheng and huixin.
met up wif the rest and went kahao house.
ordered pizza and his parents were kind to buy lots of food for us.
ate quite full, countdown to christmas!
we were enjoying ourself and it was fun.
we were talking craps, after tat went je play lan.
play cs, keep dying donoe y.
hahas. den we went to lim chu kang cemetry.
see ghost, but cannot see.
we were near my grandpa grave.
i pray the wrong tombston, LOL
i saw a joseph and i talk to it.
when i see it was joseph lim not how.
den my grandpa is jus in front of it. okay hahas.
after tat some of them went home, left me choonseng freddy peizhong.
went met candy and meifang.
chatted until morning, went home for a rest.
they went my house jus now celebrate christmas.
on christmas songs, wear christmas hat. lol i bought it
ate quite full, happy bday jacqueline.
the log cake for celebrating christmas and jacqueline bday.
after tat went flora ville relax,
they all went home, left me yanzheng huixin jacqueline.
after tat huixin wanted to go home, she nt coming to my house.
ok, now left me and yanzheng.
he is beside me, hahas.
gotta bathe, let him use com lo.
goodnites

2006-12-24T19:01:00.000+08:00

back from sentosa,enjoyed myself.
kahao, freddy, angelin, huilin, yanzheng, kelvin, huixin, peizhong, choonseng.
first day, went to the beach have volley ball game
then played water games in the sea.
after tat bathe and rest in the hotel.
night went to white house wanted to see ghost.
lol, but it was under construction.
get screen by police instead.
second day, same activities.
was caught by sentosa beach patrol,
due to a quarrel.
this guy was acting in front of us keep staring.
we walked pass and stare at him.
he walk act act purposely find trouble lor.
i ran there and slapped him.
he wanted to fight when the rest came and wanted to beat him.
police came and take statement.
after tat went makan wif kelvin family.
so nice of his dad and mum to keep treating us makan.
walked in the long hiking track, was dark.
went to another haunted area i guessed.
orchid garden. was locked.
the house looked so errie, jus like red house in pasir ris.
climbed in and my hair was standing.
suddenly peizhong shouted cannot go in, we ran out.
tot wad happened, cox it was the burial place i guess.
they saw the plagues where ppl die tat type, donoe how to explain haas.
went sit sit and sleep.
didnt have a good rest,
due to huixin, grr.
but she actually a nice girl :)
anyway tat all.
going kahao house count down christmas.
later i buying a cheap present, LOL. shh.
reach home and mum told me anthea came,
she gave me some gifts.
i was stunned by the letter.
i will keep the gifts and letter in the box.
a big thankyou. byebye

2006-12-22T10:23:00.000+08:00

blog abt yesterday.
went kaikai wif kahao, huixin, yanzheng, kelvin.
didnt buy much, jus a bag,
was having fun yesterday.
night met up wif kelvin father.
he talked to me abt my relation wif my mum.
me and her alreadi until a stage where there is not need for us to talk.
i told her i wanted to break ties wif her.
i didnt go home on wednesday.
she was worried for me,
but y cant she understand how i feel.
she scold me fuck.
anyway going to sentosa later.
3days 2night. gonna have fun there.
kelvin yanzheng cynthia kahao freddy huixin choonseng peizhong.
donoe angelin huilin yitian going also mah?
shall blog on monday. bb

2006-12-20T01:02:00.000+08:00

today nice day, raining heavily.
shall not blog abt afternoon.
haahs, jus now abt 9 we went flora ville swim.
it was raining heavily but we swam.
hahas i dont have pants,
kel called grace to bring her p.e pants for me.
luckily she didnt bring vri short de pants, hahas.
me choonseng and kel slowly go down into the pool.
it was damm cold, my teeth was shivering hard.
something funny, we disturb kel say got guards.
cox we werent allow to swim after 10pm.
kel hide into the water and we were laughing.
when choonseng say guard really behind.
i turned and got a shocked. LOL
this lesson remind me of the boy who cried wolf.
the two idiots were pretending not to see him, LOL
after tat joyce came also.
me kel and choonseng went for suana.
we were smoking inside and we couldnt breathe.
the whole room was smoke. LOL
becox of some idiot who urine into the thing trying to make it hot.
the whole place was full of urine smell and we had to smoke to save ourselves.
ok so far, enjoy ourselves.
tomoro going back station,
sch report out le, guess mine would be the worst.
see wad police say tomoro.
will i really go in one day?
i really dont mind anymore,
because i had nothing left
i didnt cherish what i had.
its too late
i will never catch the next train, NEVER

2006-12-19T00:02:00.000+08:00

blog abt yesterday first,
no work, go bugis.
actually wanna buy a light blue jeans or a white one.
in the end bought one dark colour again. yawns
went kbox at 9. until 3.
so sleepy, they all nvr work today.
only me, hais.

today neh ok la quite nice day.
only keep kena scolding from boss.
scolded for many many things.
admit i was wrong.
after tat met cynthia yitian and rest at cineleisure.
raining so heavily, LOL so cute of cynthia.
so small size den keep walking here and there.
yitian and cynthia was laming in the mrt.
i really wanna find trouble wif ppl out there.
y must they always come and find trouble wif me.
hate it, but jus a bunch of so-called gangster.
who only wants to proof that they are one.
do i have to kneel down and say sorry dont beat me?LOL
giving them face is making them climb on my head.
im tired, i wanna sleep and wish i would nvr wake up anymore.
my life heading no direction. someone pls lead me to it.
dont play wif my feelings. its hurting :)

2006-12-17T00:56:00.000+08:00

today went back to work at snowcity, jus for one day.
not going work there. so bored
next week going to sentosa 2nights there.
woah, and chrismas coming.
lots of fun. i miss the disco at genting.
they called it disco there, hahas.
thinking of going sch reopening jiu sian le.
cannot everyday play,
must wear this beautiful westwood uniform,
wake up at 6plus, carring big bag walking to sch.
wondering how is the girl le,
will she fall sick? or skip meals?
worried, girl didnt call me.
going shopping watch movie tomoro.
gotta sleep le, gdnites.
goodnight to girl.

2006-12-14T00:17:00.000+08:00

anyway many things happened today.
beat one so called kuntong fellow,
he was so hao lian telling me all his crap stories,
in the end we found out is jus boasting.
he said he was big in kuntong not like us, ginna.
he smoke 3 packets a day, LOL.
he say he got rioting case and RTC boy.
LOL wad crap, me and yanzheng beat him up in the staircase
after dat, everybody was surrounding him at the staircase
got kuntong ppl, ast de, pht, haikim ppl.
haas he was scold by everyone.
i buey tahan his attitude to me,
gave him one punch right at his face.
afternoon quarreled wif 18siao ppl.
nearly fight but in the end nothing happen.
cox i said he look like chen wei lian den he bueysong.
bueysong i jio him one to one.
haas jus an idiot, dont dare fight still wan find trouble.
but i admit im in the wrong when i shouted siao ppl humji one, buey gan
make the other guy angry.
quarreled and actually one to one de.
he called me apologise,
NO WAY, i told him i wont apologise.
not happy jiu come try lor.
he also bo bian in the end.
after ta, worst of worst.
i saw monster, the one tat anthea liked.
hais, i looked at him deep into his eyes.
it hurts deep down into my heart.
i feel like killing him.
but i know its jus prob between me and her,
its not his fault.
my mind was blank at the moment.
i didnt beat him, i didnt scold him.
i asked him to go, i told him i dont wan to see him again anymore.
in future see one time beat one time.
i was feeling lost.
i sat on the floor and stopped working.
there was this nice girl,
she was really sweet.
doing charity, she walked to me
asked me what happened.
i didnt want to say anything.
she keep asking, den i told her.
and unexpectedly she was facing the same thing as me.
she and her stead together for 1year plus.
they broke up almost the day me and anthea broke up.
but she was more pityful,
they broke up cox of third party.
we shared wif each other our love life.
she helped me up, made me understand
thanks for encouraging me. you realy such nice person, hope you and ur ex will patch one day.
i will always remember the words you said to me. May god bless you

2006-12-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

GENTING PHOTOS! no mood to write abt it, :)
p.s ; only put photos wif me inside cox too much photos le.

2006-12-14T00:07:00.000+08:00

2006-12-13T23:54:00.000+08:00

2006-12-13T23:39:00.000+08:00

2006-12-13T23:27:00.000+08:00

GENTING PICTURES!! no mood to write abt those pics, lots of fun there. thx everyone

p.s only put photo wif me inside cox too many photos le.

2006-12-13T00:41:00.000+08:00

today went orchard,
did lots of charity work.
donated 2 times,
im so happy.
when they said thankyou,
melt my heart.
night went play pool and arcade,
nothing much abt today.
gotta work again tomoro.

you made me lose trust in you, when i asked you abt it, you told me you didnt. when i knew it i was so disappointed, why must you lie to me in first place. why must you say tat you did it because you wan sense my presence. its jus an excuse. should i say sorry to you or thank you. i dont wan keep contact wif you anymore is cox i dont wan make things difficult, you jus treat my words for nothing. now we are nothing

2006-12-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

i blog abt yesterday first,
went bugis bought lots of stuffs.
spend 100plus
suddenly feel like got money also donoe how to spend.
last time always keep fan nao money,
my money now jus keep lending ppl,
at least better than me keeping it, hahas.
after tat we went to condo,
so fun, wif choonseng, kelvin, yanzheng, peizhong, kahao
after tat angelin, huilin and donoe wad name come,
plus cynthia, maverlyn, yitian, huixin
actually i dont wan go swim lor, so paisae so many girls
den kel they all swim liao den i bo bian.
when i saw tat msg, she going hongkong tomoro.
i was stunned, like speechless.
no comments, jus hope she will enjoy her trip and
come back safely ba.
we are alreadi in a no point turning back de situation,
haa really didnt imagine this day would even happen.
ok nvm, anyway after tat went eat jiu go home le.

2006-12-10T01:07:00.000+08:00

tiring day at work.
i began to realise many things,
we are jus too fortunate compared to others.
therefore i wanted to do lots of charity,
use a portion of my pay for charity.
another reason is to repay my sins.
for all the wrong things tat i once did.
steal rob bully fight vandalise vulgar cheat rude.
i wanna change to a good person,

no bad doings anymore.

i donated all my coins to a blind at orchard.
give out some money to little kids holding a tin.
the feeling is like nvr felt before.
you will feel great after donating.
anyway money is nothing to me anymore,
no point having so much money spending on useless stuffs.
i shall visit old folks home when im free,
do as much charity work as i can.

2006-12-09T01:14:00.000+08:00

shall not blog abt genting,

not the unhappy things,

not the words she said to me.

kelvin haven send me the pictures

shall post it tomoro ba.

not using blog often le,

want get everything off my head,

everyday work work work,

play, play, play

occuping myself everyday,

jus dont wana think so much anymore.

maybe im leading a better life ba,

should think positively.

not going to find a girlfriend.

shall remain single.

till i found one and settle down.

i mean no breakups, last till married?

haas its hard, nvm treat im jus dreaming.

at this age there is no true love?

puppy love i guessed. haa

toying feeling? treating love as a game?

i thought love was everything in this world.

sacrifice everything for love.

i even thought if one day i were to die for someone i love.

im willing to.

but now, ha..ha.. its nothing.

love is jus a game i guess.

whether you play it in a hard way or interesting way.

anyway i jus dont belive in love anymore.

only thing i know is enjoy life, studies, money.

i chose my path the way i want.

not like the past me.

smile everyone,

tomoro would be a better day, work ahead

goodnite

2006-11-30T23:49:00.000+08:00

feeling so happy, in a good mood but,
when i see her blog.
"no use holding on to the past"
my tears are back.
suan le la dont wan say so much
i go talk wif shuwen le la,
but her hair so many colour, can fight wif me le.
pinning my hopes high in the sky,
where stars so bright,
moon so round, sun so brown.
and there, its gone.

2006-11-30T23:29:00.000+08:00

actually going escape today, hmm so sad nvr go.
nvm, morning met up wif kelvin cut hair and get ready.
too many things undone.
went collect my shoes at far east,
acc choonseng to lavender.
met shuwen there, shes cute.
long story, den when we were ready,
kelvin they all say they dont wanna go le.
nvr meet up wif them, i also dont feel like going le.
but choonseng wanted go, since he so nice.
den somemore we agreed to them we going.
dont wanna make things difficult we went there.
but we waited somewhere lor for them to play finish.
isit my hair too beng? many ppl were staring at me like i owe them money.
at pasir ris there group of ahbeng and ah lian.
the ahlian keep staring lor,like wan to find trouble.
i stare back at her for a long time. chicken, they many ppl wan act.
den one of them come and sell pen, she jus open her mouth i jiu say dont wan. lol
but i bought one den i dont wan pen, she keep calling me take.
bo liao, den i throw it on the floor purposely in front of them.
they all were like not happy lor.
calling shuwen, she going japan soon le.
goodnites everybody, gotta pack my bag.
ill be back 3days later.

2006-11-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

jus now happy day working at snowcity.
manager nvr come,
go inside chamber for an hour,
go sleep for an hour.
after tat msging and msging.
smoke and smoke.
bangala rox, they treat me vri good.
keep hiding and chat wif them.
i hide in the snow making room when i was in the chamber,
lied on the snow and sleep.
lol snow white?
hmm tomoro going escape,
donoe who going leh.
gonna cut hair and buy a shoe.
genting is 2days away, cant wait.
tomoro escape den nxt day jiu genting.
i love it, meaningful holiday.
but nvr once i met up wif her.
shes busy with her friends.
y did you say you not worth me waiting?
its easy for you saying out but its hard for me to accept it.
den wad jayden jealous, lol
gaejio, monster and jayden are third party.
*ahbish* to them.
hate third parties lah.
no offence to anyone.
im in good mood today, hees cox.... lor.
and dont keep saying i like the who hor.
there the gal who got eyes nose mouth.(dont wan mention names)
byebye to all third parties in this world *flying kick*
takecare hor, get well soon.
i still remember the get well bear.

2006-11-28T00:57:00.000+08:00

had a long day, went shopping shopping.
spend lots, keep thinking abt genting.
its a happy day today, good news.
guess wad, i begin msging wif anthea
wah cant imagine rite? i boost my courage,
explain de misunderstand, i wan find chance to talk to her.
its hard to do it without a topic.
i belive she will fulfil her last promise to me.
i really bu fang xing this girl lar.
in my heart,
she will forever be the little girl who needs me by her side.
now she alreadi grown more mature le,
she knows wad she wans,
i shall not worry for her le,
i admit i do miss her, miss our memories.
since she first came into the sch until now.
thinking of the past, i smiled in pain.
when i first hold onto her hands,
when i first hugged her in my arms,
when i first kissed her,
.the love she showered me with.
she really do care for me in the past,
life really hard, i really feel like killing myself.
i miss you anthea
i feel like dying,
is loving someone so hard,
y is there love in this world
when you chose to let go of someone you love
let go of de memories,
de dreams we shared,
de love we had.

in this beautiful nite, i shed tears again
for the one whom i longed for

2006-11-27T10:59:00.001+08:00

HEY good news, kelvin father asked abt genting trip.
we can go overseas!!! wooh.
im so happy happy. gotta have fun there wif friends.
i told my mother, she transfering 500dollar to my bank.
and my father help me pay 200dollar.
suddenly got rich rich de ganjue wor.
gtg bb

2006-11-27T10:30:00.000+08:00

blog abt yesterday, yesterday fun day working at snowcity,
hmm quite relaxing, made a big mistake.
this guy teng hui called me and my friend go into the room and eat.
eat party group de food, they left the buffet there and went to play.
we walked inside the room and i poured a cup of fruit punch.
suddenly lights out and door close.
lol, i tot tenghui playing wif me.
i shouted cheebye kia dont play la.
den i see the stupid hair in the dark.
oops its manager. these few days alwais kena scold.
ppl do wrong den all i admit. nvm.
after tat going home dat time, saw my bangala friend.
he was really nice, i love to chat wif him my troubles during work.
and he shared his too, we would usually hide somewhere and talk.
at control station i shouted OIE. he nvr respond.
when i shout superman den he turned. LOL.
he treat me eat chicken wings. he invited me to his wedding at his country nxt year.
really feel like going but there de lifestyle vri hard to accept.
after tat met kelvin choonseng peizhong,
kel meeting joyce and grace at kbox.
he called me to pei him, i went home put bag and called mum to longbang me,
it was 10.30 le, den wan hurry there ma,
mum wan me back by 1, i dont wan lor.
keep quarreling in car, kelvin on car blurr blurr liao LOL
when it was 1.30, my beautiful mum of mine called.
i feel like punching her face,
LOL nvm anyway kel also wanna go le.
send grace and joyce home,
i told my mum something(no offence)
i say kelvin gf not pretty hor, my mum say mei la.
den i say my gf pretty? she say hen mei.
den she say if you tell me earlier you pei stead, i let you go.
LOL den i say dont have stead la, den she chey.
i think she still prefers anthea.
she told me b4 , can be wif anyone else.
except for esther.

2006-11-25T00:57:00.000+08:00

wad a tiring day, work work work.
after tat met kelvin choonseng cynthia.
they pei me go 900plus eat, after tat cynthia went home.
drink wif kel and choonseng, sudden craving for it.
recieve a msg, i donoe is who.
hou lai i called back, its anthea friend.
such lame, stupid friend of hers.
kelvin's mum booked hotel at sentosa,
3days 2nite, yay we going enjoy ourselves.
plus got chalet 3day 2nite, genting also maybe got hope le, also 3day 2nite.
hahas, wanna try to appeal.
monday going station report,
mafan need spray black.
im sleepy, nothing much to blog.
byebye

2006-11-24T01:39:00.000+08:00

today quite nice day out wif kel choonseng mingli cynthia yitian louis.
went woodlands walk walk, evening kel and louis find us.
went marina bay for steamboat,
after eating went to marina south pier took photos and blow wind.
it was a romantic place, nice music, and and lots of stars =)
lied on the grass there looking at the stars.
how i wish she was there, bought a something.
thought wanna find a chance to at least meet her,
it was long since i last saw her, i miss her alot.

but k i understand ler, nvm its ok.
the soft toy i will give to anyone else except her.
kelvin bought one for joyce, choongseng bought for his ai ren.
i think i should know my limits le,
i shouldnt wait anymore, i shall find my own happiness.
a girl who really sense my presence, a new start ahead ba.
im jus daydreaming every single day, keep thinking tat she would return
fucking cheebye
everytime i have this thing resisting me,
i kept thinking she would return,
i dont wan fall for anyone else,
i dont wan play gang,
i dont wan drink.
now leh, k fine.
wasted my last 15dollars in my pocket.
now pok le la, should have go buy cigarette.
msg wad yongsheng, nabuey i tot you no phone use le.
i sent msg so many non of them you reply.
yuan lai you change number, i didnt even know.
wad am i to you, break le so wad.
your feelings to me are all fake, you hate me
i hate you to the core.

2006-11-23T12:01:00.000+08:00

dyed my fringe brown. look better le ba,
not so ahbeng lidat, anyway tat day went find jack.
cox no work ma den wan work for 1 or 2 days.
me houyu gerald xiongjie went take pens.
in the end, quarreled wif toa payoh 369.
after tat went back and return the pen.
no mood to do anything.
wasted cab fare and time.

yesterday nite went floraville for joyce bday.
i finish work den met wif choonseng kel and peizhong.
there got joyce, grace, emily, eunice, the rest i not sure the name.
nothing much to blog, hmm later no work leh.
donoe where to go, hais time flies.
its 3mths plus ler.
many things changed, even friends.
the tone they used to talk werent the same anymore.

2006-11-21T01:02:00.000+08:00

aiya today such a nice day, went for breakfast wif parents.
go work, reach there those siao char bor kpkb.
"wah, weijie dye hair seh".
bunch of irritating bananas.
LOL. hmm today katerine come back work.
long time nvr see her le, too bad cornie cannot come back work
she msged me yesterday, hais everytime any topic abt her jiu.....
after work went flora ville wif kh freddy chunseng kel.
kel meeting joyce, while waiting met belverina(donoe how to spell)
talk talk den sercurity guard complain, she went home.
we got nothing to do den saw grace.
den she sitting alone den we chatted,
kel and joyce were donoe where romantic.
lol, chatted till 12 den hais, long story again.
beautiful mother of mine called, o... i was so happy she called me to go home.
i need the love she gave me. LOL
nabuey cb if i not her son i give her one punch on her face ar.
say wan my dad talk to me, you know i vri scared of my dad.
i feel like beating my dad up also, due to yesterday internal conflict.
in 16westwood drive,there was suddenly a short circult.
my dad suddenly shouted when i was upstairs wif kel yz,
"wad you all doing upstairs"
i know im in the wrong to scold vulgar back but vri wad lor,
we didnt do anything den he tot we playing wif electric.
tomoro off day, i wan go change my colour. wooh.
you nvr even bother how i feel
i sucks, monster rocks =)

2006-11-19T22:37:00.000+08:00

hey im home le, kel yz at my home.
they tonite at my home sleep.
kelvin talking to his girlfriend sia, lol.
went jp pei peizong buy things den eat pizza place.
also not nice de, today play arcade whole day sia.
sian, hais thinking of so many things. really confused.
dazhu and xiaozhu de pig stories shall not end lidat,
last version
they live together forever, nvr seperated NVR again.
tat is de last version, nobody can change it.
i dont care, i must protect my pig from de wolf.
tats it for today, goodnites to everyone
goodnite anthea

2006-11-19T04:27:00.000+08:00

hmm went plaze sing today wif kel, yz, kahao, freddy, jacqueline, xinghui,choonseng.
yz and kel were caught cheating.
they wan me acc them go office help them talked.
i wanted to talk but de lady asked me get out.
played arcade, kahao and freddy keep playing de machine win sweets de.
they played lots of money getting lots of sweets.
kahao money i think, he used 80dollars on them.
won 3 soft toys and lots of sweets, big big packet.
after tat went to jurong sai eat,
kel family, yz, kahao one table.
me jac xinghui freddy choonseng one table.
it was a funny meal.
food were flying here and there.LOL
den the stupid gal put so many things into my drinks and plate.
eat quite full, after tat go 800plus meet my mum.
go de wad praying thingy help out?
they call me help out de.
den the person possess god la den i need stand behind him for hours.
helping him fan and fan.
den the smoke was all over.
my eyes so tired and my hand.
after tat realised jingshen had xingshi.
went to his house pei him chat.
decided not to drink cox i promised not to.
hais hope he would be happy. cheerup brother
when he asked abt me and her, i really donoe wad to say.
only one word i can think of ba.
anyway read her blog, dont quite get wad she meant.
shall not blog other stuff.i'll not hurt anyone again.
donoe wad is it, guess also cant guess.
suan le ba, guess is hmm,
someone she like? someone like her?
if really is den wad kelvin blog write de y she say until lidat.
anyway i really dont have anyone in mind, only msg den misunderstanding.
everybody knows who i like -.-
goodnites everybody
也许你真的应该找个比我好的男孩
虽然我不知道你对我还有没有那么一点感觉
我想我们应该没机会回到过去
你应该开始寻找你的幸福吧
hope you will really find someone true to you.

2006-11-18T09:27:00.000+08:00

yawns, jus woke up.
not going work today, i called and gaesiao say need remove stitches.
the cashier tell me dont need come for sunday as well.
wtf, LOL. nvm lor lidat i enjoy lor.
anyway dye hair wif yanzheng and kelvin.
de colour like ah siao lidat. i think i going for hair cut.
cut off some coloured parts, cox its hard to comb.
i comb so long also look funny.
my mother got a shock, she wan bring me go dye again.
she gave me 80dollars for doing hair.
wasting her money.
yz de is red purple
kelvin is brown red
not quite obvious cox they didnt bleach.
but quite nice.

do you really want me to give up? i know its hard to make everything go back to the past. even if in this life we arent meant to be together, i'll still be waiting. if you really want a change in ur life and carry on, just let me know. LOVE HURTS TO THE CORE.
this is for anthea tan si ying. words in tears

2006-11-17T10:30:00.000+08:00

no mood for anything now, jus now read anthea blog.
i really donoe wads the somebody and the something.
i dont think i should guess anymore, she is giving up on me.
wad have i done? i dont even know.
She hates me more than she love me in the past.
its really hurting, how i wish i can just die off lidat.
yesterday she said those words, words tat stabbed through my heart.
"its non of my business, he deserve it, serve him right"
i cant belive i heard those words.
i did once said i wanna give up, but its hard to explain.
nobody really understand me.
hais.
i love you

2006-11-16T12:17:00.000+08:00

tired day in sch, keep dozing off lor.
yeah tomoro after sch i wan go dye hair. my mother sponcer
she say "you wan dye 80dollar 90dollar also can, i pay" .
donoe isit true, scarli bluff de.
jus now met eric koh, nxt year he bring me to hillgrove.
donoe isit true anot leh, think bluff de.
if wan bring now can bring ma, somemore at least i can buy uniform.
y must wait till nxt year, i really dont wan stardy westwood le.
anyway wondering kelvin and priscilia how ler.
jus heard pris also found stead ler, kelvin too.
maybe this shall be the end of their story ba.
will my story be the same? or i dont even have de story, LOL
its long since we last contact.
anyway later meeting kel, yz donoe go where.
goodbye everyonelse

2006-11-15T11:25:00.000+08:00

back from chalet, wonderful time there.
reach there quite late? 8plus if im not wrong.
hungry ler, we went for barbeque and i ate quite alot.
after that went back into chalet and saw another group in our chalet also.
they were staring at us in a unhappy manner.
o mind them, come for a chalet and wan to find trouble?
think they were pht one cox we walked pass them hear them say,
lin seh lin seh pa lin seh. i know it doesnt mean pht.
but it was obvious they were saying it to agitate us.
did our stuffs, sing, eat, play.
was in the room wif yanzheng kelvin choonseng
hais i suddenly felt lonely when everybody talked on phone.
yanzheng&audrey, kel&someone.
only left me and choonseng.
choonseng sleeping soundly.LOL
the rest playing majiong wif girls outside.
at 1.30 we went to red house.
pray to the statue and offered a cigarette.
climbed in and explore. see no evil.
decided to proceed to old changi hospital.
but some of us have cuts, nxt time ba.
after that everybody went back to chalet.
they drink and talked ghost stories, im a good boy i didnt drink.
most of them were asleep when my this friend ask me to play die xian.
the two of us tried but the gost didnt respond.
tried a few times. we were shivering, jus the two of us in the living room.
decided to stop it and went for a barbeque cox i wan eat breakfast.
pulled the clumsy peizhong up finally. he cooked for me hahs,.
but it was jus a sausage.
left the place wif kel at 7 cox i need go sch, kel need find someone.
decided not going sch, went to flora ville and sleep lol.
now im blogging. LOL
thanks for the wonderful time wif wonderful ppl
byebye zZZ

2006-11-14T13:08:00.000+08:00

woah, later going chalet. now kel and yanzheng at my house.
they writing donoe wad survey de things den all anyhow write.
hahas easy money. jus now went juying den saw huiting.
chatted abt somethings on bus. gapchung mean alot to her.
y must there be third party in this world? kelian kelian.
the person would know who im talking abt, dont wan mention names.
i going to play arcade lo, eric koh say if no sch den he bringing me to hillgrove?
wah many red sotongs. LOL.
anyway going off ler. BYEBYE

2006-11-13T16:35:00.000+08:00

went to pioneer, jurongville,huayi to interview.
pioneer principal sucks, went in wif choonseng.
principal having meeting, waited for an hour.
he called for me and ask who is this guy.
i said he is my brother.
principal said he is not in proper attire,
called me to walk him out of the gate and walk back.
grr i was angry, nvm i tahan.
when i walk to the office again, principal talked abt my attitude my hair.
he say he is not gonna sign the slip for me.
i feel like killing him, i snatch the report book and sway my arms out the general office.
i shouted ccb at the general office den the staffs were all looking at me. LOL paisae.
den i point middle finger at the sch.
whew, let off my fustration.
after that went huayi den to fuhua then to jurongville.
on the bus we saw a little indian boy eating a packet of rice.
the ate halfway and doze off, soo cute.
den i was munching on m&m. i threw one on him and pretended.
then choongseng put one m&m on his head and indian boy found out.
LOL he keep looking at us den have a little chat wif him.
i poured some m&m on his hands
i think it was the first time he eat m&m?
cox he was looking it curiously and finally put in his mouth.
reached my stop, i gave him the big packet of m&m and he said thankyou.
he even waved to us when we got down the bus.
o my he is really cute.
no sch keepin me. disappointed.
but its ok. i shall sleep, wondering wad i will dream of ?
wake up zai say ba. Zzz

2006-11-13T12:09:00.000+08:00

now home ler, choon seng now wif me.

he pei me go interview sch.

donoe how long will it takes, hope can end fast den i jiu relax ler. hahas

if not my mother niam niam, so sian.

everytime she call me she will talk in a attitude manner.

den i would shout back den scold her vulgar. eg. nabuey cb. LOL

i dont wan this but hais jus dont like the way she talk to me.

money come and flies. i think i should start saving up ler.

but i cant resist of spending them.

i wanted to enjoy this holiday.

me and kel alreadi plan up wad we gonna do.

the 3days for genting cancelled?

we make use of the 3days to enjoy as much as we could.

first day kbox and shopping?

second day go escape or wildwild wet?

hais thinking of escape.

memories flashed back.

*she used to hold me my hand and say she is afraid when we played. LOL

such cute girl. o nvm. erm third day neh, donoe wan go where ler.

choon seng said geylang?

LOL wad crap is tat. anyway i go find sch sch sch ler

goodbye readers o.o

2006-11-13T09:09:00.000+08:00

bored bored, shall write a post.
now in school, having english lessons in com lab.
maths after this, hate maths. so bored.. next week shall dye my hair wif yanzheng and kel.
hais but disappointed that cannot go overseas, there goes my genting trip.
i alreadi saved up for that trip, wanna have fun there wif my friends.
nvm shall go it next year.
wan try new hairstyle, but my hair short nia. everything is not in the way i want.
wan transfer also no sch, failure in love life. nothing else is good for me.
later donoe wan go where after sch. think i shall go home and orhorh. LOL

2006-11-12T23:18:00.000+08:00

im here again, jus came home, tired tired.

everynite at home, in my room i will sense your presence.

when will de feeling goes off, hate it.

today nothing much, work so sian.

got new staffs helping out.

go in snow chamber den smoke den go in den smoke.

doing the same thing again and again. lol really bored.

after that met kel yanzheng peizhong freddy kahao.

nothing much for today. doing the same things everyday.

i think somebody is avoiding me la. im not saying abt de her.

anyway going to bed soon, goodnites to all

2006-11-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

shall talk abt yesterday, hmm yesterday wonderful day.
morning went to pioneer, juying, jurong west and boonlay.
pioneer n juying call me monday go back. boonlay fail ler.
woah if really no sch den eric koh will bring me to juying and definetly keep me?
after tat i meet manjing go find kelvin yanzheng kenneth.
went bugis, played kof. i wanted to buy a shirt that i aimed.
but unfortunately, the shirt was gone ler.
hais really disappointed.
on the way home saw panda, hais donoe wad the attidude she giving
on bus i jus say gapchung and as if i know wad her mother know abt gapchung and her.
manjing went home, me and kelvin went to his house, talk abt many things.
after that went home and watch tv.
doze off and woke up at 2, lying on the sofa lol.
hais i really think i should consider again.
byebye

2006-11-10T07:22:00.000+08:00

yawns jus woke up, need to go sch for counciling and lessons.

today is a brand new day, but hais, again i will be rotting in class afterwards

its going to be the 3rd mth since we broke up

it seems like she alreadi left me for years

sometimes i do miss her, but i must accept the fact tat she isnt mine

lets talk abt better things

know what, i realise my body getting out of shape, my tummy is growing

i hate it, lol, i think i must start eating less, feel like going gym but nobody accompany suan le ba goodbye to all

2006-11-09T14:36:00.000+08:00

jus came back from sch, my sister help me wif my blog

she's more clever than me lol. now i at kelvin house

hmm later gonna eat den donoe do wad liao, bored day

actually going to juying pioneer today for interview of school, but mum isnt free

hope any one sch will take me in, i jus wanna have a change of environment

also hope i can slowly forget her? i donoe im so confused

i donoe whether wan i really wan, i wan to get back wif her but its hard, nobody undestands

wondering wad she is doing now, guess she is still upset wif me abt yesterday

k ba they rushing me, shall end here

goodbye to all =)

2006-10-31T00:54:00.000+08:00

this is my first post. now at kelvin house wif yanzheng. today hmm went arena wif yanzheng kelvin peizhong freddy. after tat went play pokercard. hmm nothing much. o ya msg wif anthea she so nice, but at times i feel jealous if she wif guys or wad. donoe y. anyway jus miss her, he is sleeping soundly. and feifei also sleeping soundly. lol byebye